theburiedlife.

"But often, in the world's most crowded streets,

But often, in the din of strife,

There rises an unspeakable desire

After the knowledge of our buried life;

A thirst to spend our fire and restless force

In tracking out our true, original course;

A longing to inquire

Into the mystery of this heart which beats

So wild, so deep in us--to know

Whence our lives come and where they go." - The Buried Life by Matthew Arnold

vacation. you go away somewhere, just for a little, or a long while, and you try to forget everything back at home.
you try to escape from reality.

i do.

so you go away, and you drive, or fly, or take a train, and you get there and think, "this is going to be awesome!" and sometimes it is.
you have fun, and you enjoy yourself.
and then, at the end of the trip, when you drive, or fly or take the train home, reality slowly creeps in and seeps deep back into your consciousness and you just want to escape again.
that happens all too much for me.
someday, i'm going to travel to places far away and stay there until i find that it's time for me to come home.
i want to travel to africa, and india, and england, and spain, and switzerland, and australia, and japan, and new zealand, and ireland. i want to travel the world.
i want to experience new things, and finally, finally, live my life.
i want to feel things, for once,
i'm so used to being numb anymore, that i haven't felt ALIVE in so long and it's sad.
it's a tragedy. it really is.
there are so many people in the world who go their whole lives without LIVING. being alive does not mean that you are living.
i want to feel intense emotions. i want to love and be loved and live and feel alive.

the buried life (the show and the poem) made me realize that there is so much out there and that if you sit back and stare at it, it won't come to you. you really do need to jump out there and grab it! go after what you want. and help people along the way.

that throughout life, through the routines and monotonous daily lives, we forget that life is meant to be lived, and not tolerated.

people go through their lives living for themselves, for financial gain and personal conquests but that doesn't get you anywhere.
selfish living may suit you for a while, but you get sick of it. it makes you sick.

if you haven't heard of the buried life. you really need to go watch it. www.theburiedlife.com/blog/
go to the mtv websites and watch the show, it makes me cry, every episode. or it's on itunes.
they are amazing people.
so, make a list of things you want to do before you die, and go and accomplish every list item, one by one, and try to help people along the way.
it's satisfying and makes you feel.

do it with the people you love and you'll accomplish that much more.
hell, you might even play basketball with the president.